when a fool writes

i don't know if she is reading this or not.
and guess what, i really don't mind if she'd even bother to read this.....

only a complete fool would be doing this.
yeah, i am just hopeless when it comes to dealing with girls.

i don't know why, but whenever i look at her face.

i felt something.

something that i had long forgotten.

at first, i don't give a damn about that thing. i feared that my feelings would trick me, making me remember that same feeling, making me feeling miserable and hopeless at the same time.

and then a few months passed.

little by little i began to know a little more about her.

and guess what, comrades.
i, unknowingly had a crush on her.
i tried to deny, but the more i resist, the stronger it gets..
and that feeling remains the same until now.

-end of writing-

teletabies...teletabis....

what the bloody hell i'm doing right now?


watching teletubbies?

i think i need to lay down for a while.....

torn apart

a part of me wants to remain single for the time being.
another part of me keeps telling me to find one.

a war then occurs

and as a result, i slowly begin to lose my grip........

i'm out

finally. i've spilled everything about my secrets.
and when i said everything, i mean EVERY SINGLE DAMN THING.

that includes the girl i have(or should i say had) a crush on.

i am not going to write who the girl is.
if that girl know about this, how am i gonna change my face so that she wouldn't recognize me?

yep, i sure have such bad luck when it comes to girls

....huh?

time to settle the score once and for all.
i will go dark starting tomorrow afternoon

will be available back on tuesday afternoon, or by latest, wednesday morning.


roger and out..

160612,0113

the clock is ticking.......
it's already 1.14 a.m when i am typing this....just another piece of my mind....

nothing much to do here
except for watching dragon ball z from 10 p.m until just now.
i have to admit, that is one of the most memorable things during my childhood.
some person might say that the show is just some stupid kid's stuff
i beg to differ

does sacrificing yourself for the sake of your loved ones is child's play?
does watching your loved ones killed before your very eyes is a laughing matter?

only a complete idiot would answer yes to the questions above....

sorry, i guess i was too carried away.....
ahhh where was i?
oh yes..

by now i would assume that most of my friends are already en route to their respective hometowns
and a few more will be leaving by tonight(duh, it's saturday already by now, isn't it?)

only a few more remains.....
counting the real final days of life a first year student....

and the final countdown has already begun .............

end of year 1

time sure flies so quickly

without even realizing it's already the end of the first year as a university student
or to be precise, as a UniMAP student

we've been through a lot of things during our stay at Wang Ulu
some are memorable, some are,well..... let's just say not so pleasant

well, to all of you who will be returning home starting today
have a safe journey home
don't do anything stupid or reckless during the holidays
i don't want any of you to get any injuries or scars because of those things.....


i guess these will do for this post

till we meet again, my friends

au revoir.....

SEMPER FI

shortpost

done with digits.
next stop is electrical engineering.....

danger imminent

4 papers in a row, this week only.
1 paper in the second week
1 paper every day.
seems legit.

i shall need every bit of my strength to face this.....
and also some luck.

disastrous nightmare

paranoid.
despair.

two words that spell disaster to me.
sometimes, i'd rather seclude myself, escaping from these... nightmares.

the extreme fear of something, that is paranoid.
and the feeling you feel when all hope is lost, that is what you call despair

i have felt both of these.
none of them felt good.

i do have something that i fear,
that is getting too close with a girl.
and i end up having a crush on her.

things like this always do not end well for me.
or to put it much simpler, i always have rotten luck with ladies.
that's a fact.

you want to know how losing all hope feels like?
trust me, you don't want to..