11 days to go...and counting...

time passes quickly without me realizing...

 oh yeah...tomorrow is the day...the day the Mayans predicted the end of the world..or to put it simply, doomsday.

but seriously, i don't believe that.

only He knows when that is really gonna happen

but i'm not gonna talk about that.

right now i am currently in a bad mood and stuck in one helluva situation.well, technically not one situation, but plenty

now let's get to that situation.

you see, in order for us UniMAP students to sit for our final exams, we must first verify our registered subject with our respective RPS, including me.

but somehow, a thing occurred ..therefore for this part, i'm gonna write it down in Malay...easier to express my emotion, ya'know..

macam ni ceritanya. ada satu subject ni, masa mula2 register sem ni aku amik.subject tu namanya thinking skills. waktu tu jadual lama baru kluar, so since aku tgk jadual 2 x dak benda yang clash, aku pun amik la subject tu. entah macam mana time start2 sem ni tetiba jadual dah berubah....and time subject thinking skill ni la pulak aku ada lab analog......nokharoom...awat jadi lagu ni pulak?

aku dok kata dah....tgk dulu macam mana.....mana tau kot2 nanti ada jadual baru kluaq...last2 haram x kluaq.

memang aku nk drop la....tapi nak jadi cerita, link ntuk aku buat  bab2 drop dgn register subject ni memang kerja nak jahanam..asyik error memanjang.banyak kali kot aku buat.....ada sekali dah nak sampai dah part ntuk drop subject tu.tiba2 error tu dtg balik......mmg fed up aku..last2 aku mintak tolong kat member rumah aku, halim dgn hakim suruh bagitau kat lecturer tu yang aku drop and mintak lecturer tu tolong dropkan untuk aku....

and i thought to myself "settle la.". and this is where things started to go wrong....

setelah beberapa lama aku try bukak link tu untuk drop subject 2..., akhirnya dapat jugak.aku pun p la dekat part ntuk drop subject....yes, buleh bukak. and then i noticed something...."mana butang drop subject ni?"...tengok2 tarikh. ya rabbi....dah tgh bulan 10, dah lebih deadline ntuk drop subject.. memang x leh nak buat apa2 la....

dan pagi tadi aku check slip subject....thinking skills tu still ada dalam list...ni yang buat aku semak ni...

aku buleh saja nak p exam thinking skills tu..tapi carry mark aku 0 la...attendance pun kosong...kalau carry mark dgn attendance bukan 0 aku p saja exam tu....pandai2 la aku nak goreng time exam...

so, nampak gayanya kena la tanya RPS aku dulu...maybe memang ada salah aku sebab x tanya RPS awal2...tapi server pun satu hal jugak....aku buleh bilang dgn jari kot berapa kali aku bleh bukak....

heh, that's one problem...

now for my personal problem.....you guys know that there is a girl that i am having a crush on? those who knew about this, better STFU. tell nobody about this...

got a fucking bad news about it..and that news sometimes puts me in misery

she...found herself a new boyfriend....

and definitely not me.no serious i am not joking..

heh, looks like my life is like a running gag.....has a crush on a girl,, girl already has a boyfriend, that unlucky fella know about this, ....you know what happens next........

despite that, i am still waiting, i don't know why, i just can't tell ...or rather, i don't have any answer for that....

is that thing called hope?

-i'll be waiting  for you, even  if my presence in your life only means a little to you, i'll still wait...-.

just an inane prattling

man...when was the last time i wrote something here..
must've been at least a month ago....definitely..
if this thing is a journal, damn thing might be covered in dust

almost two months had passed since the beginning of the new semester...
so far, 50 50... some parts are good, some are...well.....not so...

personal life is in a mess right now....
how should i say this......
have a problem with my 78-years old grandpa
he has Alzheimer....have to bear with his...attitudes.....


that's one thing...
another one..well...
should i mention about it?
should i?

all right...here goes nothing....
it's about my private life when it comes to girls i like....
so far, only some know about the girl whom i have a crush on.
(guys, please keep that a secret, or i'm gonna fuckin kill ya,muahahaha)

somehow, i feel like i am being cursed
this may be repetitive, i know, but i just have to say it all over again....
when will this..misery ever end.....

heard from a friend that she's currently admiring someone....guess this is it.....
gonna have to wait again....

"I'm afraid to love you cause you might not love me in return. I'm afraid to love you because of fear that I might be hurt before it's through, i'm afraid to love you because i might lose you the same way i lost the one i loved before you, but most of all, i'm afraid to love you cause i think i already do"

1st post to have f words, i guess?

20-9-2012
6.42 p.m.
LOCATION: KKC7,
ROOM NUMBER: CONFIDENTIAL

two weeks has passed since the new semester has started.
just have these 2 words to say...

MIND BLOWN!!!!!

and this fuckin' shit happens because of one fuckin thing,(drum roll please)
the fuckin timetable.

you might think that i am just exaggerating things but it so damn true!

the first timetable that was released was perfect, no clash, plenty of breathing space,perfect in every aspect.
but all hell broke loose when the second timetable was uploaded two days before the new semester began...

but there's nothing that can be done......have to endure it for the rest of the semester........

just a simple...song

Dovahkiin, Dovahkiin
naal ok zin los vahriin
wah dein vokul mahfaeraak ahst vaal!
Ahrk fin norok paal graan
fod nust hon zindro zaan
Dovahkiin, fah hin kogaan mu draal!

Huzrah nu, kul do od, wah aan bok lingrah vod
Ahrk fin tey, boziik fun, do fin gein!
Wo lost fron wah ney dov
ahrk fin reyliik do jul
voth aan suleyk wah ronit faal krein

Ahrk fin kel lost prodah,
Do ved viing ko fin krah, 
Tol fod zeymah win kein meyz fundein!
Alduin, feyn do jun,
kruziik vokun staadnau,
voth aan bahlok wah diivon fin lein!

Nuz aan sul, fent alok,
fod fin vul dovah nok,
fen kos nahlot mahfaeraak ahrk ruz!
Paaz Keizaal fen kos stin nol bein Alduin jot!

Dovahkiin, Dovahkiin
naal ok zin los vahriin
wah dein vokul mahfaeraak ahst vaal!
Ahrk fin norok paal graan
fod nust hon zindro zaan
Dovahkiin, Dovahkiin, kogaan mu draal!

part 3? maybe later

sumpah bila last aku tulis dlm bm untuk blog aku pun aku x ingat.
rasanya time aku form 5 dulu kot..
tak pun time aku kat matrik penang dulu..

kira dalam 2,3 tahun dah la kan?

ah x kisah la.
yang penting aku tulis blog bila aku ada mood, ada masa, ada idea, ada ilham,  dan ada benda yang buat aku rasa ada modal, lebih kurang macam tu la kot.



aku tau yg kadang-kadang orang usha blog aku lepas tu komen:
"apsal banyak ko tulis bi? susah la nak paham"

nak buat macam mana, dah aku memang minat nk tulis dalam bi,
and guess what, sebab aku merapu dalam bi kat blog ni la yang bi aku time matrik jadi ok sikit.
boleh la takat nak dapat band 4 MUET.(band 5 dgn band 6 x mampu, these two levels are far too much for me to obtain, haha)

anyways, dengar2 isnin ni result exam kluar,
hopefully x de subjek yg kena repeat.
and i mean it

well cukuplah untuk skrg. kalau ada modal aku sambung.

part 2

chapter 2

a new beginning

I don't know for how long I fell asleep. The next thing I knew when I woke up was the ray of the morning sun was shining directly on my face. What's more, another mysterious person was tending to my wounds .

The person was not Price. That person was a woman. I don't know who she was, but from the looks of her, I bet that she is somehow related to him

As I tried to rise from the bed, she quickly stopped me and said,"I know that you have an important thing to do, but please, don't push yourself too hard or else you are gonna hurt yourself more.Father has told me everything about you. So just calm down."

"Father? You mean you're his daughter?"
 She just nodded with a smile. As the day is getting brighter, now I could see clearly her face. She has a fair complexion, with such a beautiful face and long, dark hair.  It all seemed so different with Price's characteristics, from what I saw before.

"Father told me to bring you downstairs when you are awoke. So shall we go now, Mr...."
"Just call me Stone. It's much simpler to remember and say, right?"

"OK, then let's go", as she helped me to rise from the bed. At first the I thought my wounds would impair my movements, but luckily my wounds are not that bad. Soon, we were already at the downstairs.

"So, how does it feel to be walking again?"asked a familiar voice
"Feels great to be back"
"Good.Now if you don't mind, follow me. I've got a few things to talk about with you."
At first I was a little bit confused, but knowing that Price might have something that I need to know, I followed him to a the basement.

As he opened the door and switched on the lights, I was amazed and surprised.
Behind the doors,it almost looks like a base of some sort with weapon racks located around the room . A lot of weapons were kept in such a good condition, in fact they all looked like they were fresh from the factories.

As I circled around the room, I could see different pictures hanging on the walls. I looked closer to one of the pictures and saw a face that was too easy to recognize. A man with a mohawk hairstyle, holding his assault rifle with Price at his side.

This must be Soap, I talked to myself. Who else could it be?

"He was like a son to me. We used to be a team for quite a long time.But he is no more.A bastard named Makarov was responsible for his death.However, Makarov is not going to repeat what he had done.He's dead, killed when we attacked his hideout a year ago.", said Price.

I nodded. Things must be hard for him when he lost a person he considered to be his son.

"But that's the past.Right now, it's better for you to contact Mac. Surely he is waiting for some good news in the past few days.Am I right?"

"Right.But how am I gonna..."
I stopped my words when I saw Price connecting to Mac...



-to be continued-

something new.

since today is the starting of a new month, i guess it would be appropriate to write about something.

something quite different
perhaps, i might write a story,
well, i'll give it a try
(don't bother thinking whether it is just a fiction or not)


chapter 1

-back form the brink-

Where....where am I?
"Just take it easy, son.You are still injured", replied a voice

I..I'm still alive?

"You seemed like an almost dead person when we first found you near the woods.What exactly happened,son?"asked that voice, again.But this time, the voice seemed to be calmer than before,knowing that I might still be confused...

"I...Yes.I remember now.I was assigned with a task.To hunt down a certain group with my team. However, we got separated during our way to the enemy hideout. What's worst, I was ambushed when I was scouting in the woods...but that's all I can remember", I replied with a slow but steady tone

"You mean,The Inner Circle?",replied the voice, but this time, I can see his face. He was an old man, probably in his late 40's, but somehow his body looked like he was far younger than his actual age.

"How did you know about that?That information was supposed to be confidential.Only my squad knows about..."
"Your squad, eh?Tell me, how is Mac doing as the commander right now?

"You know him?", I asked that man back with as a surprised feeling.

That man replied,"Of course I do. He was once my officer during one of our operation during the days when I was at your age. but that was 20 years ago. By the way, you can call me Price.Now go get some rest. You still looks like you could really use some."

I wanted to ask him more, but the condition of my body forbids me to do so.And, unknowingly, i fell asleep....

when a fool writes

i don't know if she is reading this or not.
and guess what, i really don't mind if she'd even bother to read this.....

only a complete fool would be doing this.
yeah, i am just hopeless when it comes to dealing with girls.

i don't know why, but whenever i look at her face.

i felt something.

something that i had long forgotten.

at first, i don't give a damn about that thing. i feared that my feelings would trick me, making me remember that same feeling, making me feeling miserable and hopeless at the same time.

and then a few months passed.

little by little i began to know a little more about her.

and guess what, comrades.
i, unknowingly had a crush on her.
i tried to deny, but the more i resist, the stronger it gets..
and that feeling remains the same until now.

-end of writing-

teletabies...teletabis....

what the bloody hell i'm doing right now?


watching teletubbies?

i think i need to lay down for a while.....

torn apart

a part of me wants to remain single for the time being.
another part of me keeps telling me to find one.

a war then occurs

and as a result, i slowly begin to lose my grip........

i'm out

finally. i've spilled everything about my secrets.
and when i said everything, i mean EVERY SINGLE DAMN THING.

that includes the girl i have(or should i say had) a crush on.

i am not going to write who the girl is.
if that girl know about this, how am i gonna change my face so that she wouldn't recognize me?

yep, i sure have such bad luck when it comes to girls

....huh?

time to settle the score once and for all.
i will go dark starting tomorrow afternoon

will be available back on tuesday afternoon, or by latest, wednesday morning.


roger and out..

160612,0113

the clock is ticking.......
it's already 1.14 a.m when i am typing this....just another piece of my mind....

nothing much to do here
except for watching dragon ball z from 10 p.m until just now.
i have to admit, that is one of the most memorable things during my childhood.
some person might say that the show is just some stupid kid's stuff
i beg to differ

does sacrificing yourself for the sake of your loved ones is child's play?
does watching your loved ones killed before your very eyes is a laughing matter?

only a complete idiot would answer yes to the questions above....

sorry, i guess i was too carried away.....
ahhh where was i?
oh yes..

by now i would assume that most of my friends are already en route to their respective hometowns
and a few more will be leaving by tonight(duh, it's saturday already by now, isn't it?)

only a few more remains.....
counting the real final days of life a first year student....

and the final countdown has already begun .............

end of year 1

time sure flies so quickly

without even realizing it's already the end of the first year as a university student
or to be precise, as a UniMAP student

we've been through a lot of things during our stay at Wang Ulu
some are memorable, some are,well..... let's just say not so pleasant

well, to all of you who will be returning home starting today
have a safe journey home
don't do anything stupid or reckless during the holidays
i don't want any of you to get any injuries or scars because of those things.....


i guess these will do for this post

till we meet again, my friends

au revoir.....

SEMPER FI

shortpost

done with digits.
next stop is electrical engineering.....

danger imminent

4 papers in a row, this week only.
1 paper in the second week
1 paper every day.
seems legit.

i shall need every bit of my strength to face this.....
and also some luck.

disastrous nightmare

paranoid.
despair.

two words that spell disaster to me.
sometimes, i'd rather seclude myself, escaping from these... nightmares.

the extreme fear of something, that is paranoid.
and the feeling you feel when all hope is lost, that is what you call despair

i have felt both of these.
none of them felt good.

i do have something that i fear,
that is getting too close with a girl.
and i end up having a crush on her.

things like this always do not end well for me.
or to put it much simpler, i always have rotten luck with ladies.
that's a fact.

you want to know how losing all hope feels like?
trust me, you don't want to..

a monologue of a lonely soldier

i don't know whether i should be typing this or not
i just don't know.

things have gotten complicated recently.

heck, i don't even know where to start.

what would you do, if you see a girl, which resembles and reminds you of another girl whom you had a crush on?

tell me, can you feel the loneliness that i've been through?

a few people kept saying the same thing over and over again.
"you still don't have a girlfriend? too bad .it'll be nice to have one"
hmmph.easier said than done, mate.

different girls have different things they like.
this what bothers me for a long time

but,actually deep inside, i really, really do want to have a girlfriend.
i always do
but, i am not used to talk with girls using "that" kind of sentence.
why? i just don't know.

guess i'm gonna stay single like this till my university days are over
maybe, maybe not.

who knows what'll happen next.

ah.....

absolute boredom is attacking me right now.
got two freakin' tests tomorrow
one is digital, another is electrical.
digital is kinda ok for me
but the same cannot be said for electrical

well...
let's get this thing done and dusted

tch.it's a no-go

server is currently at the moment.
gonna open it again at 5 in the morning.

dust to dust.

6 hours left
1 more paper to go

preparation?

i don't know
the only thing i've done is

only some minor revisions...

no way...
and my mind is kinda blur right now...
what should i do???

Getting the gist of it

i have to say, having just one paper for this week is kinda a little bit relaxing
but still, i m not sure of tomorrow's paper.
skills in communication and technology.

what question type it will be?
there is a high probability that essay questions are sure things to come out.
and what else,

objective questions?
man, this type of question is a rare sight to behold.

then how about subjective questions?
well, if essays are not coming out, this thing is NEXT.

no matter.
still got a couple of time left..





alright mates

LET'S DO THIS

Can you read this?

You cannot read, can you?
Tell me if you can read this

onedownanother4togo

finished my math paper yesterday.
i have to admit, i lost my sanity after the paper ended.

the questions are like, oh my god,THEY ARE KILLING ME....

i'd rather perform a 50m bungee jump rather than answering the questions....

and it wasn't only me who felt the same.
almost everyone whom i knew here agreed with me.

and there goes yesterday..

and for today, i plan on studying cp.
but seriously, what am i doing?
man.... hunger is striking me....only one food stall is open for the time being. and it is swarming with people,starving just like me....

guess i'll have to wait for dinner...

alright enough blabbering.
just received some words regarding on what will come out in cp exam.

structures, eh?

hmm, well it's still easier compared to file..

perhaps it will come out,perhaps not...

whenthisiswritteniamstillstudyingmathforexam

my hands are full right now.

because the final exam is around the corner....

oh wait a sec,

it's tomorrow(!),

starting with math(the most killing subject of all-time)

two days later(thursday), computer programming(the tricky one)

next monday, skills in communication and technology(essay question, perhaps?)

then a week gap(whew!)

next stop(well, after the one-week freedom)
basic electronic....i can't say it's easy, but so far, this is less tricky compared to other subjects(the only problem is that you have to memorize a ton of formulas..)

and finally.....

electric circuit theory(the difficulty? i'd rather not mention it here.the extreme of the extremes...yer got the idea right, mate?)

well, hopefully everything shall end well...


or else......